Great summer

 

Dear Journal,

                I know it's weird why I'm making my journals public and all, just because I want to share it and if someone feels alone well hey I'm here let's go through life together sounds nice if I read that from someone's post. I would feel genuinely glad, anyway on to life's journey. I am feeling a little down maybe because I was sick for a couple of days and now and still painful it sucks. And the foreman that was gonna come by is still sick its been 2weeks already and today the 3rd so yeah my bed that I had customized had been stalling from the workshop for about a week now or over, my fleece duvet already come through and best thing is I paid for everything. I live with my parents and basically we pay for our things ever since we were little, we had a system since beginning of time to earn our own money within our means and buy things we want with that etc.. 

So I have been living to a very cluttered room with almost no space to move so cramped that you just need to stretch to get to all parts and cranny of the room. And the balcony my clothes has been dormant there for weeks now in trash bag even though it's clean, because the foreman was about to renovate and our clothes was on the way so we already organized it in a way we can so there's space for the man to work. Moving on, I am trying not to breaking down specially because of our professors. I just have to rationally internalize it, that I only need to have a system and follow through that is advance study and make a reviewer and be one step ahead or two if needed. I really hope my grades for prelims is great because they said midterms until finals is quite a challenge. I have been like locked in for a week now and I can't stop stressing out from nothing, like boards when its far from now and I should just focus on the present and do my best till then, that's the only logic I can come up with right now. Also it's already 2:00pm here and I need to follow my schedule of 1 hour cram so see ya! Have a great day and rest of the week, you can do anything you are amazing!