Early bug

 Dear Journal,

                Hey so I'm back, today's topic would be retail jewelry heist. After being reeled in from those times of having a must have to get them, which one would be willingly barter something that's more valuable. This raises that quote of another man's trash is another man's treasure. Realistically speaking we've all been there once or twice for the experience or to get that movie scene vibes. Lately, I too have willy nilly scoured the internet to get the bargain prices for good quality stones (or gems they call them for exclusivity), silver, gold, and pearls, it has been an absolute fun to get that experience to even offer a price point when before all I did was watch from a T.V perspective or magazines when I was that yee tall. But now, I want to stop since things are getting out of hand. I need to have money when I need it. At the end of the day its just stuff we'll leave behind when we've become nothing but ashes somewhere under the soil or rustling wind with the leaves stuff and gets stuck under someone else's eyes. What really matters to me are leather bags with velvet touch, pearl watch (with leather or gold strap), blinding or retro heels (those where you can hike with I would beg for, which I usually never do casually iykyk), 18k gold accessories with intricate details those that are unique pieces only!, soft good quality dresses (preferably flowery or black lace ones, but no to cleavage slip), and good house finds (NO to minimalist, yes to antique victorian or coquette, also agree to fairy aesthetic), good aesthetic old book finds (like those vibes from bella in beauty and the beast books yk), and bedazzled laptop or phone (we giving y2k vibes all times), good quality affordable makeup and skincare (brief summary i mean we already know this). 

So aside from those materialistic needs, of course we need that good music taste specially the retro. Good energy attracts abundance that I know for sure. Anyway the topic is already further away from the point so I just better insert my update, well after buying like ungodly amount (because normally I don't spend) my pocket is officially empty now. Now to put entry to my mantra "I am wealthy in mind, heart, and soul, I attract good luck in this life", I know a bit far fetch or corny if I do say so myself. I always dreamt of typing here in the blog ever since I was that yee tall, I thought I would be immediately identified and be grounded and stuff but apparently here we are now. 

I'm so excited to finish this term and be in my senior college year next semester then graduation after that is the board exam era! Let's go! Until then.

May log

 Dear Journal,

                Hey how's it going? so far mine is somewhat well. I have been faithful to my needs, but I need to balance it out. Anyway, I have been feeling uneasy, like I feel sad at the same time I'm feeling extreme emotions, I don't know precisely what's going on. But, one thing for sure reading manhwa fantasy romance isn't for me anymore, it's dangerous since it enables me to daydream and over-romanticize my life and takes me further into the rabbit hole. 

                Realistically, I don't usually feel emotion unless it's to over romance everything around me. Or about worrying everything else ahaha. I need energy not from me but from someone else, it's easier. I'm feeling like my old self no more of this new persona that's taking over my life. So, moving on I bought a new gold bracelet its 18k and 4.2 grams, cute blush, carnelian stone bracelet, opal stone ring with silver inlaid , two summer dresses (black and baby blue) so that's all. Well reading this now, it's actually not that much? I'm usually not used to buying this much? usually it's twice to 5th buy for the whole year, also of course I didn't just buy for myself. I bought him a silver chain with moissanite cross for lucky charm, a 20000 mAh powerbank, 9000 mAh jisu life fan, and sweet good foods with souvenirs from my trip. 

               It's not that bad, I just have to work harder for my splurge with purpose right? I mean those are all a need. Anyway I just wish his attitude would change, I noticed that he is changing and I somewhat do not like it. I'm just not gonna delve into it, too stressful.

               Update, my studies are doing really well. That's why I wanted to reward myself so much because if not then who will? And so moving on, the next update would be about my new found concept of ambitions? My goal is after I graduate in nursing school, I take my board exams and then I apply for the paralegal program from an IVY league university in the philippines, then take my NCLEX. After all those I apply for a dermatologist nurse slash legal work. Then after gaining my experiences I will apply for abroad maybe in UAE, or just somewhere with a lot of benefits. I plan to achieve more and gain valuable experiences. I want to be someone my future child/ren will aspire to be, someone who is independent and successful in their own terms. We can do this!