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Greetings,

               Hello, yesterday I bought my laptop and I'm using it right now. So far so good. I have been forgetting lately that anxiety is only a story being told in our head, it's not real it never was. The reality seems to be closer to our lips and head, what we say or think becomes our manifestation in this timeline. I want to do something everyday like literally in a word like "finished", sounds nice. Lately just by watching tv shows, movies, vlogs, etc.. without daydreaming now watching it just feels different, the difference is I am not fully immersed and fantasizing what ifs scenarios that will be the end of my explosive head. But then something hit me by reading through the media, daydreaming hinders us from our potential to do our chores, or even be attentive to where we are right now not extravagant adventure time imagination created world. I am doing this to document my progress whether someone is reading or not. Today again was a no show in person class but an online and it was 6 hours, golly I know. I thought by buying something things will magically take place and suddenly my life will fast forward to the end part the best part, but it turns out if buying was the goal then what's next? 

This time make sure to practice being present and think things through, I know it's obvious but it's easier said than done. But then again I don't want to kill my emotion and greatest desire, through this we all can find feasible ways and for me it's by getting things done right away and after that make a list cross it out then make a longer goal. Through this I made noticeable changes in my freshman year, but then I got burnout because I did not expect that would actually happen to me, I though by just keep on going things will follow. Wrong I was, remember to always rest when things don't make sense and be a little kinder to our little version. I'm hoping for a future where I'll just laugh about things I wrote about here. As of the moment my head feels like a heavy ton, I have no idea why but it could be from my lifestyle. Be right back I'm gonna do a quick yoga workout. Talk with you tomorrow, until then.