I think I'm okay?

 

Greetings,

            Today I'm gonna focus on my goals and wellbeing. I just thought lately to buy myself an iPad or a Samsung tablet I mean whichever but then I won't be able to properly manage my time effectively. Truth be told I am already having a hard time just by having my phone and laptop! So I decided maybe I'll just give it to my boyfriend as a gift without the special occasion haha! I want to progress on my individuality and independence starting by my new rules taking effect from today onwards, which are:

1. Listen more to a logical reasoning before making choices or rationalizing feelings

2. You are not what you feel but in a state of trance in that space and specific time, it's okay to feel!

3. You are a wonderful being so don't let anyone make you feel bad about yourself, take charge!

4. Be generous and kind to yourself, spoil yourself first before anyone.

5. Remember your values! If it doesn't align with your principle then don't dwell anymore.

6. What you do today is a progress and that is enough to be proud for the day!

7. If anyone tells you otherwise, just breathe with your hand on your chest it aids in calming.

8. Always keep a positive outlook no matter what.

9. You are amazing in what you do so keep moving forward!

10. It is never too late for anything. Reach for the sky!

Well it turned out to be more of a motivation. Anyway lately I am appreciating more of the vegetable and simple ingredients, I feel more alive lately quite odd for it to suddenly click one day right? Also I will be turning 23 in 2 weeks from now, age really is just a number cause in my mind I'm 16 but more responsible haha! I want to learn to abide by my rules and be myself again. Ever since I stopped my vices I feel so happy and that feeling of I can do anything haha. Well I'm getting quite hungry as I'm typing it's also from a simple ingredient, life in a simple scope feels more gratifying specially with God in it! I love life, I love God. See you!

I'm back thank god

 

Greetings,

            Hello, time flew by so fast without me noticing it. Honestly right now I am not feeling too well maybe due to the energy crash from this past few weeks, I have been happier though compared to before bermonths. I am feeling a bit anxious and my head feels so heavy maybe due to yesterday I have drained my reservoir of energy. It's not good for me to stay long in socializing even if it's my boyfriend or anyone for that matter, nothing personal just health status stuff. Since it has been a while and I was coping too, I have quite recovered from the pain but never forget them. I just did a minimal vice and I realized that, that was the last moment I will encounter of me doing that ever again. I want to feel better about myself so I will stop it for my wellbeing too. In all honesty I am tired yet I can't sleep because of that surge of emotion wait I haven't taken a dump yet. I have not been drinking religiously my supplements and my gut is not doing well, well time to actually drink it even if it's already late LOL! I'm back just drank my magnesium and vitamin c, I feel good already. Oh yeah, I have my skin burned and it peeled off thanks to my cousin that has no regard to anyone and expects everyone to always take care of her. I feel so unsafe around her I literally can feel the energy of malice in her, let's not even dive there as I am typing I don't feel well being in that space. Anyway I might fall asleep after this or continue with my study, my exam is next week and on a Monday can you believe that? 

                                              Until then see you next time, love ya 

                                                                                                                                                                                     

                                                        xoxo, V.